Racial harmony day la guise...

Supp!! Phew... been alot of emotional posts these few weeks. Sorry... life's being a bitch to me right now. Nyahahahah!! Anyways so this week was RH week so we had to dress up to school. Decided to go as the usual ninja warrior swag. hehehehe

The story behind all this.

There was this girl. Like any other girls, she was neither the beutiful one nor the smart and nice one. She is just a typical cheerful girl. Then, one day, she met this person on the first day of sec 3.She didn't know that he would play a special part in her life. For the first time in her entire life, she felt her heart beat so fast. It never beat this fast before. Not even before a competition. She... fell in love. That's what you call I guess. She got paranoid. How could this be possible? She can't possibly like him right? I mean, who is he to make her fall so deep? He wasn't perfect. He wasn't anything but just a simple guy. Yet, he was the only one that could make her heart beat this fast. Nobody had ever done that to her. Well, except for her idol that is but.... How is this possible?  Why she asked. Yet, she couldn't answer. She watched him from afar for 2 long years. She couldn't tell anyone. Not even to her best friend. She waited and waited to make sure of her feelings. She even forced herself to think that she had fallen for another to take her mind off him... but, no. She couldn't. She acted so well that she actually thought that she liked the other but then, when he came back... her world was shattered again... Why? She realised that she was still deep in his trap. WHy can't she just tell him she said... she's afraid you see. Afraid of what? She herself don't know. 

All love is painful

well. Simple as this, love sucks. Honestly, I thought that maybe if I like another guy it would simply fade away... But guess what. It doesn't. Girls, don't ever reject your feelings... Don't ever say that you like someone else when you like the other.

Honestly, why did I make myself believe that I like the other? Seriously, how dumb can I be? Just because I don't wanna get hurt? WTF? Now I got hurt much more worst! FML. I don't know what is happening. 

GD World tour!

Hey guise! So I went to GD's world Tour in Singapore. I went for both days. Yes. I know. Im THAT into him. What you wanna start bashing? Go straight away! Hahahahaha!

Basically, I went there with my sister. The first day was quite okay. Not really fun because the other fans werent so enthu like us so we were like the only two who was practically singing to ALL of GD's songs.But the performances were just simply breathtaking! Alkl the lights and the graphics shonwn on stage were just awesome! I could literally say its the best concert I've ever been to. (Sorry BigBang bros and 2NE1. GD is just simply the best of the best.)  Honestly, I was screaming my ass off. We managed to get quite a nice spot. Everything was simply amazing. GD is just the best man you could ever see in your entire life. Its a good thing that he actually spoke in English and it shows how much he had improved since the first time he debuted. Its Spectacular! The remixs of tyhe songs are definitely the best. With all the actaully bands crews there to perform the song live is just great. The song order is really grewat because you could actually see how it flows from being crazy at the start and then gradually going into the slow soft singing and then back to jumpping our ass off. Its really amazing. 2NE1 was there as a specially guest. They brought everyone into a new level of crazyness!

I thought I would get bored by the performance but guess what? Day two was even better!! The crowd were just amazing! Even much better than Day One. They were all hyed up and ready to ump their fist up in the air and party all night long. To make it better, Big Bang parents were all there to see GD's last concert. The explosions were even louder and even more bigger. It got everyone excited. Literaly. Im really happy to have gone for both days.

HONESTLY THE BEST 2 DAYS OF MY LIFE!

True Touch

 While watching GD World tour, I honestly felt jealous. I'm so jealous of his success. How is that even possible? He's just 25 and already a millionaire? His parents must be so fucking proud of him! I mean, well who else own a resort that cost $5 Million and earning more than 920,000USD just from sales of song copyrights? He earned that all by himself. How is that even possible?? Gosh. I'm really envious of him. Truthfully, Im proud that have looked up to him since young. He has been my idol and have always been.

Honestly, I don't think I can go far. I really really wanna go far with dancing but Idont know why, I feel like I dont have the talent. I know that I not as good as those dancers. I tried really hard. I just feel like giving up but I know that I won't. I don't want to. Im in a very confused stage right now. But truthfully,I don't know if this really suits me. I feel really confused right now. But I know this is the only way I can get to where I want. So fuck this shit. Im just gonna train hard like some mofo.