It's funny

Its funny how it's always like this.

Its funny how the people around me treat me. No matter who or what they are, its always the same. I tried being the bitch but it never works. I always end up being the nice one. Being the one who is the outcast. Being the one who is people's second choice. I always wanted to say 'Im used to it' but in fact, I never was used to it. It

Its funny how they always thought that I can't lie nor act but in reality, I'm always lying. All day, its the same routine. No matter how annoyed or how depressed I am, I always end up coming to you with a smile. Never a sad face. Its how I work, you see. Early in the morning, I wake up. Put on my smile and start the day without people know how I feel. I hide things. Things that I think are my weakness.

Its funny how I always put up the brave me in front of everyone. You know why? I'm scared of what I might end up to. Its like my shield. Its how I protect myself. Its how I survive. I refuse to let down my guard no matter who you are. I never cry. I wont cry. I always hold back my tears.. Always.

Its funny how I think myself as a wolf. I like wolf. I think I'm like it. Realise that wolfs cry at night. Yeap. For that simple reason. Night is the only time I let myself out. I feel that the darkness make me feel that nobody is there to see me when I cry.

Its funny how people think they know me well when in reality, they dont. Nobody know. No one will.